I don't know who I want to become when I'm older

That was me through every school shift and life grade I had

I don't know who I want to become when I'm older.

That was me through every school shift and life grade I had.

In middle school:

- I don't want to be a doctor, my mom already is

In high school:

• I don't want to be a teacher, all my teachers are bad

In uni:

• I don't want to be a software engineer, It's boring and lonely

Post-uni:

• I don't want to work as an employee, I'm not an order taker

• I don't want to be like everybody else, I am unique (yeah, right?)

Truth is... I was insecure.

• I was insecure that society would reject me, But I rejected myself instead.

• I was insecure about what my mom would say, But what do I have to say?

• I was insecure about what my small circle would think, But never learned to think on my own

• I was insecure about how others would feel, but never about how I'd feel.

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But what was I so unsecured about?

Others,

• Judgments? Only God can judge me

• Expectations? Are none of my business

• Traditional pathway? I am in the way of my path

• View of the world? I control the narrative, I view the world through the story that I shape

It's a process of un*learning whom they told me to be and learning who I am.

I believe in myself and so should you.

Hold my hand,

I am not doing this alone,

I am taking you with me.

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See you on the other side of destiny ~